I keep my goals to myself, ’cause whenever I share it with folks
They get a look upon they face and their memory floats
To a time where their goals and the stars ain’t align
And they swear I can’t do it ’cause whoever he knows
Couldn’t accomplish it, despite all of my accomplishments
And trail blazin’ from a place, of obscurity
To needin’ more security the second that deposit hits
The least they could do is just acknowledge it
And give me praise for it, I mean this wasn’t wishful thinkin’
Like whеn you blow out the candles on your birthday
’cause that only comе ’round once a year and you gotta wait for it
I worked every day for it, I prayed for it
I even left my mom in the O, move to LA for it
Thinkin’ I could get rich overnight
But then that rent payment came on the first and I couldn’t pay for it
Shit’ll have you second guessin’ yo’ life
That was my third strike, the first one was signin’ to Bird
Lettin’ my ego inflate because I thought I was on
Didn’t make too many songs ’cause I was so insecure
So just to come around, I had to sip a lot of Patron
Five years, takin’ trips to Miami, prayin’ the label drop the album
That shit never came, bottles of champagne
Label meetings where nobody knew my damn name
Man, just reminiscin’ about it’ll spark a damn flame
I used to look at Wayne pictures on the wall
And think ’bout Dedication 5
And how if I could get up out this mental prison that I put myself in
I’ll make my manifestations fly
Sometimes I wonder if the setbacks that God gave me
Were all because he wanted me to be a patient guy
Or if I really slept on the only opportunity that would come
Or am I givin’ into Satan’s lies? Sometimes I can’t decide
Hey, father, I’ve been callin’ to the heavens
Can you hear me? ’cause you ain’t replied
Seem like you really want me to figure this shit out by myself
But do you realize I ain’t divine?
I’ve been playin’ with my nine too much
I’ve been thinkin’ ’bout that crime too much
My sis and my dad used to do the lines too much
The habits I made, the habits they gave
It’s clear, you could draw a line through us
Am I a diamond that’s rough? The snow on the bluff
The road that they told me was rough
The heroin or the Narcan that open you up
All the “I love you”s my dad never told me enough
I never had a father figure there to show me what’s up
I came from a place where no one got a trophy to touch
And still got this metal displayed
Just to show somebody else who been goin’ through some things
You can change it, don’t listen to whatever they say
And when the odds stacked against you, your friends fallin’ off
And you wishin’ that you had somebody callin’ to vent to
And when you’re starin’ at the chrome
Just know that you not alone ’cause it’s all some shit I done been through
Bags under both of my eyelids
I’ve been runnin’ for a long time
You could feel it when you look me in the eyes
I put blood, sweat and tears for this right here
Bags under both of my eyelids
Blood, sweat and tears for this right here
Bags under both of my eyelids
Bags under both of my eyelids
I’ve been runnin’ for a long time
You could feel it when you look me in the eyes
I put blood, sweat and tears for this right here
Bags under both of my eyelids
Blood, sweat and tears for this right here
Bags under both of my eyelids
Bags under both of my eyelids
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