Um
The first time I was heartbroken
I was 15
And he was two years older than me
And I thought he was the coolest guy in the world
Because he could drive
He absolutely ripped my heart out
And still to this day
I don’t know if it was love
And I don’t know if I’ve ever felt love
And I don’t think I will know until the day I die
The first time I ever lost somebody super close to me
Was my Aunt Patty
She got cancer when I was really young
She fought hard but ended up passing
And I remember her final days
She was really skinny and sickly
Talkin’ ’bout how precious life was
And how she didn’t wanna go
Really put everything in perspective for me
She was younger than I am now
Yo, I remember the first time I got the news
That I was gonna be a dad
While I was actually landing in Dallas
For my great-grandmother’s funeral
And I remember landing and getting a text from Kora’s mom
Just being like “Hey call me immediately like I have to talk to you”
And uh, she was like “I’m pregnant, we’re we’re gonna have a kid”
And the mixed emotions
I can’t even begin to explain
Like
Just losing one of the strongest members of our family
And also gaining a member of the family
I remember the first time I had to make a big move
Was when I was moving from Sydney to LA
With my older brother Laroi
And I remember at first I was just like
Really, really angry with Laroi and mom
Just like losing it ’cause I was like
Moving away from all of my friends, cousins
And all my relatives and everything
Like it hurt you know
But I realize that if they didn’t move me out
I probably would’ve been a completely different person
And like I would’ve been raised completely differently without her
But yeah, that was my first time
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